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Never mind this. It wouldn't accept the whole question. 

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Well, I gave it a go but I'm done with PUMMEL for at least the foreseeable future. I'm not going to lie, I'm tired of losing. My record proves that I don't belong in the Heavyweight division but I can't bring myself to ask for a demotion back to Light Heavy. I know it's silly to get so down about losing in a competition that really doesn't mean anything but I can't help it. I like winning. I don't like losing. The company line in PUMMEL is that it isn't about who wins but about improving and pushing ourselves as artists. About having our work critiqued by other artists so we can get better. They are probably right but I just can't deal with getting smacked in the face every month by how I'm just not on the same level as the other Heavies. And there are rarely any actual critiques or comments on what I could have done differently to get more votes. People have mentioned that it's probably a popularity contest but I don't believe so. The other artists, especially the Heavyweights, are very good. A lot better than I am. I just don't have the self confidence to continue getting crushed in the hope that I'm somehow improving. It's hard to see every match decided on the first day and still have 3 days to watch your opponents lead increase before it's over. I don't really like giving up on it but I'm too easily depressed to continue on. I knew the competition would be a lot tougher in the Heavy division but I thought I could do better than 4 wins to 8 losses. And worse, only one of my wins is really that. Of the other 3, 2 were unfinished and one didn't even show up. Maybe I'll jump back in sometime in the future but for now I'm tired of losing.
August PUMMEL inks by VagabondX
August PUMMEL inks
That other version of my PUMMEL for August was born out of my disgust for myself. I hate it. I feel a little better about this one. I don't expect to win but this one doesn't nauseate me like the other.
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Never mind this. It wouldn't accept the whole question.
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Deathwish by VagabondX
Deathwish
Started out as just a sort of warm up drawing of :icondw-deathwish: 's namesake character but for some reason I kept working on it. I should have just stopped at the warm up.
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Well, I gave it a go but I'm done with PUMMEL for at least the foreseeable future. I'm not going to lie, I'm tired of losing. My record proves that I don't belong in the Heavyweight division but I can't bring myself to ask for a demotion back to Light Heavy. I know it's silly to get so down about losing in a competition that really doesn't mean anything but I can't help it. I like winning. I don't like losing. The company line in PUMMEL is that it isn't about who wins but about improving and pushing ourselves as artists. About having our work critiqued by other artists so we can get better. They are probably right but I just can't deal with getting smacked in the face every month by how I'm just not on the same level as the other Heavies. And there are rarely any actual critiques or comments on what I could have done differently to get more votes. People have mentioned that it's probably a popularity contest but I don't believe so. The other artists, especially the Heavyweights, are very good. A lot better than I am. I just don't have the self confidence to continue getting crushed in the hope that I'm somehow improving. It's hard to see every match decided on the first day and still have 3 days to watch your opponents lead increase before it's over. I don't really like giving up on it but I'm too easily depressed to continue on. I knew the competition would be a lot tougher in the Heavy division but I thought I could do better than 4 wins to 8 losses. And worse, only one of my wins is really that. Of the other 3, 2 were unfinished and one didn't even show up. Maybe I'll jump back in sometime in the future but for now I'm tired of losing.

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BlueBeacon Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
hey are you alright I looked around and I wanted to pay the commission but I don't remember how or where you keep the rates for your commissions.
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VagabondX Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2015
Sorry, I'm just forgetful. I'll answer your note tonight.
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BlueBeacon Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Its ok I just don't want to cheat ya. Your a great artist.
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godofwarlover Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2015
How's it going?
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VagabondX Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2015
Same old, same old.
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